Dulu masa kecik-kecik jeles sangat ngan kawan-kawan. Sebab diorang ada kakak, ada abang. saya ni, ape pon tak boleh. saya takde kakak. and saya nak kakak. ingat lagi masa kecik-kecik dulu, boleh pulak saya soh ibu saya beranakkan sorang kakak utk saya. Ibu saya pon wat muka camni =_+. Haha. mesti dia tak tahu nak jawab ape dah. n mungkin dia menyesal sebab anak dia bangang cm saya ni. Haha.
Tapi kan, bila dah besar. tetiba Allah bagi saya 1 rezeki yang tak terpikir oleh saya untuk ada. Saya dapat kakak. Walaupun dia bukanlah lahir dari perut ibu saya, tapi bagi saya dia memang kakak saya. Umur kami beza setahun je. Tapi tak tahulah. Kenapa saya rasa dia betul-betul macam kakak saya. Nama diberi Nurul Ain Bt Kamal.
Berjumpanya kami di friendster secara sengaja sebab dia sibuk nak kawan ngn kite mase tu.hikhik. Mulai rapat sebab selalu YM. Mase tu umur dia 21. tapi kalau tak silap dia dah start buat master kt UTM.hebat tak dia? see,kakak I kan..haha.pastu dia duduk KL semula,jadi selalu lah kitorang hangout kemerata-rata tempat.hihi. tapi dia dapat kerja jauh.kat Kelantan. sejak tu,nak jumpe pon payah. dia jadi lecturer kat UMK. Bila dia balik KL, UIA plak suruh saya balik umah, bila UIA panggil soh balik ke sarang, dia pulak balik kelantan. Memang sangat-sangat susah nak jumpe! Last kitorang jumpe was after raya last year kot. and after that, she's engaged. and saya sebagai adik derhaka,tak dapat datang. sebab masa tu was very busy with the family. banyak sangat event yang family arranged sampaikan tak berkesempatan nak fly pergi tgk dia engaged. but still, dia cakap it's ok. rasa nak nagis je mase tu. sebab bersalah sangat-sangat. And dia ada cakap nanti bila dia nak fly ke London for her doctorate, dia nak jumpa dulu. Tapi sedihnya sebab dia kena fly ke london at 2nd of hari raya 2011. and masa tu saya kat Singapore,and since I'm not using Iphone ke ape, I dont know that she'll fly to London that day. Bila saya balik Malaysia after 5th of hari raya, saya bukak FB and saw may ppl wish her farewell.and I started to confuse. Rupanya kakak saya dah tinggal saya. Without saying anything.Sobsobs
And sekarang, I miss her so badly. Sebab dulu dia selalu marah saya kalau saya malas belajar. And that's why saya bijak sikit masa tu.Haha.Tapi sekarang, takde maknanya. asik main je..takde dah kakak yang boleh monitor me. And I miss her so much. Rindu nak naik kereta ngan dia. Jalan-jalan,shopping-shopping.
Kakak, if you read this. Please know that I miss you so much. Lepas ni,if balik Malaysia, I promise to meet you no matter how hard it is.
Right now, I miss you so much. Take care,kakak!
To my dearest sister,
ReplyDeleteI'm soooo touched by your post. I miss you too. Haha, first time kita contact tu not for the right reasons. Tapi alhamdulillah, I managed to get a sister out of that fiasco.
Jangan lupa, my wedding nanti you are my bridesmaid okay.
Oh, ape jadi ni adik. Rajin la belajar. kalo belajar rajin2 nanti kakak leh datang for your convo. I'll make sure I'll be there, even though I haven't finished my PhD by then. So belajar rajin2 tau. Make me proud. :)
Oh panjangnya comment. Hee.
Ok bye!
I was sitting alone in my room and started to miss you that time.hehe.thank you for being present to my life.you mean a lot to me.:)
ReplyDeleteYes for sure, this time takkan lupa. Tapi pls, jangan pilih the end of December.sebab mase tu final exam.n my final sem too.hehe Permintaan melampau. :P
Ok. From now, I promise to work hard sebab kakak janji nk dtg time konvo! InsyaAllah I'll make you proud.
take care :)